Don't Ask - for the sake of updating

-In the Name of Allah-
Assalamu Alaikum wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakatuh

It seems no one updates their blog anymore, it's been a while. Basically all the blogs I have listed on the right have NOT been updated in over 3 days except maybe one or two. I thought not to follow the trend and update, even though I have been quite frequently Alhumdulilllah.

I went through some old letters, cards, and notes from people of the past it really made me think. I also read a blog where the brother expresses through freestylin'. I realised my writing is hopeless and may never get to that level. I don't think I actually write what's on my mind and from my heart like people normally do, I don't know how. Khair, anyways so i got my note book and just joted down ideas and I started writing this afternoon, but I really wasn't in the mood so I left it and did some work around the house. I probably wont be in a writing mood for at least a week or so, inshallah it'll pass. I have no motivation or inspiration other than wanting to write like those who write from their heart.

A lot has changed. Khair Inshallah. I don't know... what is it that I don't know? I just don't know.

You were the one I asked for
You came my way, but I was kept from knocking on your door
Walk toward me just this one time
I'll run - just show me a sign
Keep my mind from this insane crime
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drivin' by in the fog, every night
You, yourself can't comprehend the wrong from right
I can't listen to you
The tears flow before your eyes, it's nothing new
he stands in front of your presence
You still deny their innocence
It's not a bomb, but a rhythmic explosion to show you life
come back to the world, hand me your knife
slicing your veins to see the blood flow
you can't stop it, and you don't know
sacrificing yourself without a fight is worthless
there's a point, show them the loss and face your success
it's a promise you can't deny
c'mon - step up, step up once and for all destroy the lie
I took a turn and put it in park
looking back to the world, nothing's changed - still sitting in the dark
the mind works for both sides
but the body breaks through the tides
Shakin' your head, walking up the steps
it's just a thought, has still to reach the reps
just this one time make it reality
Ameen, My Lord I ask with sincerity

i wanted to see if I was back.. or still going through my little non motivational phase.. I guess I'm comin' back. lol. Inshallah. 2 freestyles I just did. um.. yeh.

Anyways, i shall sign off with that and maybe sleep a bit early for once than usual inshallah.

Not so lost - I got my Lord.

ma'salam
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Hippity Hop

-In the Name of Allah-

Assalamu Alaikum

Note: Audio changed :)

This is something I wrote 2 nights ago, I've also recorded it, but obviously that's not for posting :P :D. (I don't feel like posting the "dad" entry, and probably wont)

Never to See Again

I sat - i saw - just flyin' by

laying back with the thought - it's my rest stop
i get to sleep in peace
i think it'll never seize
ripping out - people gathered
they don't see, but it ain't no holiday breeze
nails - yeh, nails screeching life to immortality


I tried - i wailed - i failed
it's all a scheme - to see the dream
above all to reach siratul mustaqeem
it begun at step one
traveling to a dimension favorin' none


Thunder - lightening - facin' it all
moutains rumbling - I'm reachin' to escape
ain't no way out - destiny's broke through the gate
thunder- i got no reply
Callin' back to the footsteps
they weepin' but they got no clue i'm wailin' and screamin'
Questions with no answers - a blank mind
laying back in awe
what happened? My life - damn I flawed
Anything left? Anything to help me now?
Hopless - raisin' my hands with the tears rolling
it's too late
too late...
I can't believe - 20 years gone to waste
disgrace - I failed - I could feel it
the anger - the hate
a snake makin' it's way around my leg


Thought - not left in the mind
all to hear - me and the angels
the fear smelt
The sweat and the blood all drivin' me insane
my life passin' me by -
It wont do any good, but i cry
the lie - the fight - the eye
I abused - and now I can't deny - bluntly accused
I voice - i think I may die again - thunder of anger
not a stranger - My Creator
from the darkness - a lamp lit
insane! all the good - no point left in it
you still don't realise - it's the riyya and kibr which left no value to it
wailin' to turn back time - surely a blessing from One of a Kind


A tap - on the back - youngin' it's a shame
you lost hope - knowin' He's Most Merciful
who you? me? ha.. a small deed you overlooked
ain't so small now?
you got years to kill before the day - the end
The rain - the seed - the day awaits
you got time - sleep - rest well for a day of heat
No tears to flow again - concrete words til the end
I lay back as the years I lived - pass me by


A time - never to see again - seconds passing
never to see again-
life to the very end
seconds passin' never to see again
'til the day - nothing can change then


I slapped myself awake from the dream i was livin'
bust up a move and slide on to the early mornin' prayin
payin' a price
nothing comes cheap if you livin' a life of the dunya


A time - never to see again - seconds passing
never to see again-
life to the very end
seconds passin' never to see again
'til the day - nothing can change then


I sat - i saw - just flyin' by
A drop of tear from my cry
putin' out the fire - I'm tellin' you it ain't no lie


flowin'

Ma'salam

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Battle II

N/RE:

don't mess with me, you gotta see, it's meant to be/
every day I see in the newspapers and on TV/
they're just wrong, they have no clue/
Islam will spread as an epidemic flu/
All shall be done in time's due/
with this battle, step back if you got a glass of pride with you/
I ain't messing, take it... flush it down the loo/
I'm standing tall, standing high.. starring up at the sky/
the stars shinning bright, they be showing me my way/
meh, step back, cuz I'm here to slay/
Not their useless heads, but their brains/
One, two, three... on the floor, with astaghfaar, your sweat the floor stains/
with these rubbish and bloody lies, my brain drains/
with the rain, mercy of The Supreme/
It'll pass, seeming as a dream/
I'm stepping up a step foward/
stepping back, you're not a lad, just proving to be a coward/
this wont be complete without mention of the mujahideen/
They like it nice and hard, putting up a fight, not a old hag.. slim and lean/
I'm stepping back... boy, to try.. you just on crack/

-- slides mic to M1 - Bring it...

M1:

Me on crack??? Naa never that/
Ima souljah recognise we stay strapped/
See Ridin for my lord is my only ambition/
My flow is causing your body Reciprocal inhibition/
Trus me u donning Niqaab is a mercy to tha world/
Cos no one wanna see a girl that luk more like James Ray Earl/
Ouch I hope I didnt hit a nerve/
cause even ya tears are scared of your face/
They be running extra fast down ur cheeks/
cause every second on it adds to thier disgrace/
Tha authorities around tha endz sayin uve been misplaced/
stressin that no one near you is gonna be safe/
u be gettin shifted outta tha country/
quicker than they get rid off toxic waste/
Now settle down lil one and take tha loss/
Cause uve jus been defeated/
signed yours faithfully tha big boss/

**(I laughed my head off at his reply, it was awesome especially the niqaabi part)

N/RE:

At least I got some respect for myself/
I ain't needing to go that low, now when I look down I see a short elf/
my mistake, it's just you/
Bro, take a step back and wait for your cue/
My face may be veiled but my words spread farther than you can see/
You don't understand, shall I speak a bit louder for your frail ears uncle jee?/
Thank the Lord I ain't a lad/
I don't gotta put my head down in embarassment, not understanding a word... dude it's sad/
'fess up, you know we a blessing from above/
oops my mistake, you may not have known under that steaming brain lacking the love/
'aight enough of this, let's get down to business/
I ain't gonna be rapping no hate and fighting like the pathetic senate and congress/
like I said, don't mess with me, you gotta see/
It's life, not a battle in some movie with Bruce Lee/
With a drop of blood and a mix of rain/
I'm telling ya I'm on a mission for the past's pain/
I'm marching and waiting for my cue/
We'll face one another, but I advise you to train your crew/
let's see what you gotta say/
Oh My Lord enhance the brains of the brethern is what I pray/
I'm hooked on this battle whether night or day, i'm gonna slay/

M1:

You think your big but you dont kno im bigger/
Asia's my gun and Pakistan's my trigger/
Im gettin Mad props sorta like Jigga/
Staying on ma grind till I hit those 6 figures/
Ona street level no one does it illler/
You about ta get merked like Foreman in`Thriller in Manilla`/
Ajeeb? ahahaha Damn right Ajeeb/
Wen kids see u ther legs be takin dem nx level speeds/
Oh My they say`Which fool let u out tha zoo?`/
Blud u cnt blame them tho your weirder than den Blink 182!/
No problem tho I'll jus pull out ma 22/
and put a few of dem slugs str8 thru you/
Tha nx thing u'll be seein is those walls in ICU/
ahaha My flow is sorta like the flu.. very infectious/
my bars stayin clean and always conscientious/
Now make haste, drop your wack rhymes and claim tha loss/
Cos u jus got merked quicker than a fat kid eats chocolate sauce/

N/RE:

I may be strange/
you can't comprehend cuz you know I'm beyong your range/
Boy you got a big head/
thinking you can beat me and I claim the loss - I'm still alive not yet dead/
I ain't afraid of you nor your crew, I'm all up-in-your face with my rhymes/
You run and hide cuz you know the one who steps up always cries/
I ain't sitting here listening to your trash/
i got enough to deal with and people to bash/
Didn't you hear, they're launching missiles/
forget the governemnt, it's innocence it' kills/
I'm gonna make my words spread/
They'll spread like an epidemic flu and the day they were born they will dread/
Boy pull out your 22/
I'm gonna step up a step foward and raise my hands from Allah waiting for my cue/
helll no dude, I ain't gonna claim the loss/
Why would I accept that when I didn't even accept their views on the cross/
I'm all about calligraphy of thought/
I learnt yesterday a lesson I often jot/
ha! this world's messed by the big headed men/
It's the qalam i hear its the Qalam I see.. my words spitting with the flow of the pen/
My essays my words.. I know you see/
You just got jumped and your time to flee/

Peace... it'll never seize

M1:

ahaha y'all are ill but me? thers no one iller/
my tec 9 will leave y'all ina body bag chilla/
MalikOne and Furqan aka tha lyrical killers/
Trus me B I wont jus merk u lyrically/
I'll cut your brain into 3 pieces/
so nx time u think of stepin 2 me u'll think thrice/
No joke I got this city of London on lock/
Im a well known ridah but I don’t touch or even smoke tha rock/
ahaha callin me a wuss...Who do u think u are? You low life trick/
Tha fire I bring when I come around will leave ur whole crew more than blick/
s**t I roll so hard even tha mofo's standin a mile away frm da beef will need a stich/
So make sure u and ur peeps are not in tha area wen I let my crew rip/
Or tha nx thing u'll be seein is me bussin ma clip!!!/
10 seconds after u see me... bullets coming for your face/
After ur down i'll take every penny u got on that paper chase/
Y'all are so minor my 10 yr old sista will leave ur face needing a brace/
Shortie I dont discriminate between race/
Its jus y'all make me more sick than watching a gay couple embrace/
Now all of y'all shut up Im tired and want some peace/
dont take heed of my warning and I'll cut u up like my old skool fleece/


Khallas... Oh yeh I won hands down :P lol as the judges said :D Nah, he rocked the battle.
As I mentioned in another thread, there's something I've been wanting to do... but next post Inshallah...

Battle I

Assalamu Alaikum,

I'm not in the mood to update today, but was asked to so I must lol. Inshallah. I don't feel like typing something up so I was looking through my documents to find anything I've written in the past and couldn't find any suitable and then went off on all the forums Ive ever visited and looked through the threads I've created (which are ALOT lol). But nothing good enough for a blog, and wouldn't make sense randomly being posted. SO...
I'm going to post my first and second Rap Battle Inshallah. I've only have 2 so far, third on it's way and both were with the same bro, awesome freestyler mashallah.

This was my first ever go at freestylin'... The bro said I typed essays, which I have to agree with. :D
him = M1
Me = N/RE

M1:

I be on them backstreets,/
Them kufars know i clap heat/
If u got beef, my brothers and sisters/
U best Holla at me/
Kufars get locked up, stabbed up, shot up, everytime I pop/
When me and my boys step into the scene/
My adversaries flee from me, quicker than fire ignites Gasoline/
I tuck a gat under my jumper, stick a chip on my shoulder/
Till I bust a Full clip in your face b***h this beef aint over/
Still my Nine wont leave a trace of your original face/
You shouldnt throw stones, if you live in a glasshouse/
likewise,
If you got a glass jaw, u should watch your mouth/
Cos i'll break your face/
Do more than dislocate your jaw/

Dont hate on me homie i keep my styles raw

N/RE:

you expressing hate
smashing it for those who imitate
they aint gonna hear ya
say it loud write it with blood
set sail like noah's ark, it's all coming our way
we gonna drown in the flood
get it straight.. shaheed it's all part of fate
deaf.. blind..they aint gonna hear our rhymes
gonna get my words together
it's gonna say more than an army of haters
gonna get our army.. our soilders at war
on a mission... they aint gonna deny the submission
the hate, they aint ognna get it straight
shake their land...shake their brain.. they gotta see it for real
im done with that, we all done... not gonna sit back and chill
you talking about smashing some jaws
shayateen already stabbing 'em with their claws
its more than just flaws
you think it's fun and games... step up at the home plate
you gonna be drowning with humility
for you it's gonna be black faced embarassing.. puh believing in the trinity
I'll slap the words in your face.. for this deen we got vehemence
your so stupid dressing a poodle, between you and that dog there's no difference
send a mad woman with a broom, hit you over the head
it's sad, you still don't get it when you're almost dead
we did our part, i don't got no more time to waste
I'm waiting for my call, death is one thing you gotta taste
ur rejection means nothing to this deen
all ur excuses heard and seen
I don't wanna hear you're sh*t
get lost you selfish git
gonna smash this pie in your face
dude, you're a crack pot disgrace


M1:

I see death around the corner/
the pressure's getting to me/
I no longer trust my homies,/
them phonies tried to do me/
That stick of endo left me paranoid and stressed/
Pack a gat and my vest,/
under my clothes when I dress/
I'll put a slug to them backstabbers chest/
My trigger on the finger, no mercy in my eyes/
Its not like i wanna live my life this way, but i aint got a damn choice/
I got my team behind me, strapped and ready to die/
They patiently waiting for the sound of my war cry/
I charge forward and signal the crew to get this shitt set off/
Squeezing that lead off, i'll blow the dirty kufars head off/
Damn
Brown sugar got me mesmerised/
She so fine, Dear God make her mine/
Shortie be running thru my body like shes poison/
Running out of time
Holdin it down, Keeping myself in line
Still making that dough/
I guess whether I succeed or fail time will only show.......

N/ RE:

people aint realising what's going on today
some just blind and others freaking trying to betray
you got the idiots, wanted to mow down all the kuffar
their hearts either blind or they need guidance - not needed to be run over by a car
the mujahideen fighting out of imaan and taqwa
they aint gone mad, hating on every kuffar stated in some wacked up fatwa
I'm a sistah with pride but humility
I really don't get the point of their words of pity
I got my sword and my intention
I aint gonna waste my breath on their stupid suspicions
I'm rhyming my thoughts to prove a point
those waving a flag 'it's haraam' got no business in this joint
this is how i express my mind's treasure
there's a limit, and my words i measure
haraam aint worth a feather
it weighs more than all of u put together
if you donno what's haraam and not, all i can ay to you, is good riddens
I'm gonna get teh message accross, tell them what islam forbiddens
this probably isn't your idea of a rhyme
but for me it was worth my time
put your gun down for a second
turn around, look at your akhwaat... what they facing aint even what you reckoned
if you're blind, dude it's time to open your eyes, full of lies
get my drift... catch the gist
one who lives always dies
I'm marching with my army
geared, marching one by one calling to the enemy
comanding my soilders, i could call to fire above the ground
turn around
look around
u really donno what u gotta do
fools, they gonna one day scrub the loo
forget them, I aint like them
they the roots... I'm the stem


That was my first battle, so as you can see it was quite raw. I'll post Second battle in a seperate entry Inshallah.

Spice of Urdu III

A bit more of my bakwaas...

waqt hai kahan?
Zindaghi hai kahan?
har lamhay ki pehchaan na mit jaye,
purani baaton ki koi aamiat hi na rahay
...woh waqt door nahin, jab zindaghi aur maut ek hi lagay.



Kehtay Kehtay har lamha bichar jaati hai ~
Apnay Rab kay ghar ko dekh kar nazar ruk jati hai...


is dunya main hummara kon raha?
har taraf dekho tho koi na koi bakwaas karaha
is dunya main hummara kon raha?
koi hai jo kehsakay, hummain samajgaya?
is dunya main hummara kon raha?
koi tha jisse ya baat karsakain?
is dunya main hummara kon raha?
is dunya ka kia karna... jo hai, jo hamesha se hai
Jinhonay har baat suni, jinse bayhad pyaar hosakay
ya zindaghi hai sirf unki waja se, jinhonay dhoka diya unsay kia karna
ya dil aur dunya ajeeb makhlooq cheezain, ahmiat na rahi
tho dunya bhi khatam hogayee

Randomness out of a bit of Boredom

What is pain...

Never did I think it would be true, such power in these delicate words with the use of only a few
Among them shed some light upon my path, seeming as a blur distance
made from such simple material, reeling me in for the unique presence
Presence of such beauty which cannot be seen but identified through similar essence
I felt
I reached
I yearned
alas, destiny had visited on this very night
what once was, had disappeared from every atom's sight
what once was, was never to return again
with one call, was ease from pain


What is love...

love; something so complex and must be approached with caution.
love; A realm of battles and obstacles
love; a leap of sacrifice
love; life time of trust
love; understanding and partnership

love - 'til you've lived with them... shared good times and bad.. happiness and sorrow and you bounce right back up because you got each other's back